Wednesday, January 17, 2007

searching for true love

I couldn’t resist but to type these thing out just so you know how fantastic this book is… to help you to get jump start… this is how the author struggled in her relationship repeat in cycle of broken hearted again and again.

“I think we should break up,” he softly said. Those were the words I’d been dreading for months. “I’m ready to start seeing other people.”

My trembling fingers tightened around the phone cord, and I choked back the sob that threatened to explode from my tightening lungs. There was a long, awkward pause as he waited for me to speak. My only consolation was that he could not see my pale face. I would never have been able to hide my devastated expression had he been in the room at that heart-wrenching moment.

The nightmare had come true…again. What had started out as a harmless, fun, innocent relationship had slowly become a complicated entanglement of emotion and passion, only to end abruptly now that the fire had faded. The cutting pain that ruthlessly squeezed my heart was so intense I could scarcely breathe. Somehow, I managed to end the phone call with at least a small amount of dignity. As I placed the receiver into its cradle, a dark cloud of despair overcame me, mercilessly pouring a violent torrent of rejection and hopelessness into my reeling mind.

It was over. Once again, I was in for a sleepless night of agony, hours of weeping until no more tears would come. Once again, I would have to face the aching, desperate loneliness of walking into a crowded room full of strangers – with no hand to hold, no strong arm to gently rest on my back and give me security. Once again, I was alone.

How many years had I longed and urgently searched for true love? How many nights had I lain awake, dreaming of a beautiful romance --- a lasting relationship that wouldn’t end in heartache?

I had made incredible sacrifices in an attempt to somehow cling to every short-lived dating relationship that came my way. I had given pieces of myself away to each man that came into my life --- pieces of my heart, my emotions, and even my body. Yet once he had tired of me, my fragile heart would be played with and then carelessly tossed aside. Even if I was the one who ended a relationship, the heartbreaking pain was inevitable. Every time it felt like something precious was being violently ripped from inside of me.

I yearned to be loved and cherished. I had dreamed of a perfect love story for my entire life. But somewhere in the midst of the endless cycle of one temporary romance after the next, my dreams had shattered right along with the broken and fragmented pieces of my heart.

As I lay on my bed pondering these thoughts, I found myself inwardly forming a desperate prayer.

“God, where are You in this?”…

This is how the book gets started. The compelling subject as love is never a miss-subject to anyone of us especially those haven’t got married. As I keep reading… I just feel like typing the whole book and paste here. Every page has its way to reveal the truth I’ve missed. And revisit my inner consciousness about this part of my life. I’m tired of cycle again and again either. I’ve given pieces and pieces of myself away either. I stop singing on the guitar because it used to share with someone else. Many lonely nights its feel as pain likes the author’s. You searching what went wrong. You wonder can love be simpler than this. And you ask in the end, “God, where are You in this?”…

On the side notes, I must say this… I like their writing style! I recall Boys Meet Girls right after I read the first page. When they write, they paint picture in your mind. You’re like watching a movie. You feel their emotions. They put you to see what they see. Very inviting. As for me as a writer, I prefer to write in this way rather than just saying something point form. In order to convey; you must connect.
So now you have it. . You bet I will recommend this book to you if you have read Boys Meets Girls regarding relationship. There are more I want to say. But I leave you to find out.

P/s: thanks Erin.

Listening to: Gravity - John Mayer

18 comments:

ming said...

Wei..I went to mall of america and i couldnt find this book. apparently they left one copy but dunno where is it. =_=" aiyo..

anyway.. i love the song which u r listening to. =p

JYJL said...

Ha~ the biggest mall in A-ma-li-ka dont have this hot book? Maybe try another bookstore inside? There are still alot of options in US. You will get it somehow.

I like the song so much too. *aiks, where is my guitar!?*

ming said...

aiyo..the mall is big but they only have 3 book stores. =_="

anyway i saw other books from this author, Ludy. She has another one similar to this, all short stories one..but i dun its as good as this..
i'll continue looking for it though..=p

JYJL said...

Hrm.. Ludys have written a few books also. the couples join writting When Dreams Come True. And then they write separate books concerning manhood and woman as well. I dunno about those books. But if you can get one of these, i think it will be great also~

Anonymous said...

Wahhhhhhhhhhh....

*sniff* Its so touching when I apply it to ur life. Becomes so real, when ppl I know experience it.

ming said...

Here I come and read again...

=~(

It makes me started to rewind back the video that I had my past love experience playing on. I started to remember I used to have those nights too.

Yes.. I used to have those nitez..USED to.. =p

I seriously need to go get this book..hehehe

JYJL said...

Erin ah,
Thanks for being there. Your stories alone have encouraged me and gives me wisdom. I won’t go far without you. Thankss… loves ya!

Ming,
What the author writes is so close to what we been through ya. Haha… she knows how to connect. Yes, won’t be too hard to get it lar. A-ma-li-ka has it. Haha.

Anonymous said...

weee..it's veryy truee..i think v all should really wait for our other half to come..and not just simply get into a relationship b4 all the pieces of us are gone..it's like a rose..everytime we peel one petal..it will be one petal less..the rose represent us..and everytime we get into a relationship and if it didnt work out, we'll be ripped and pieces of us will be shattered..and if we dont saved ourselves for the right one, we'll be like the rose without petals..Let's just wait on the Lord for the best is yet to come! \(^0^)/

Anonymous said...

Love included hurt. A lot of ppl hurt by other trough love and also hurt others through love. Be brave, and true love will come to you again. (but too bad i cant be brave now, i letting the thing worse) ^_^

Anonymous said...

weee..hmm..is it because ur not in the right relationship? that is why it is getting worst? i don't think v should be brave in order for true love to come..coz v cant be brave blindly if he is not the one..v should pray over it first..anyway God bless..take care! \(^0^)/

Anonymous said...

Whoa. Fantastic writing! I have to get me this book.

JYJL said...

Hey guys,

Can we put our beautiful name on the comment? Haha, I was curious ma~ At least let me know by ur little hints or nick or something okay?

I believe God's timing in all these. As Solomon said, "Do not stir up nor awaken love until it pleases". Till then, just enjoy ur singlehood. As the author says, if u're not attach means you are not ready yet. Haha. Shud read the book.

Pam, I think you can writes one urself lar. Hor~

Anonymous said...

weee haha weee and \(^0^)/ is my trademark..so easy to guess only..hahaha..hey how much is this book? can get from mph? Thanks! Gong Xi fa Cai! get lots ang pow! \(^0^)/

Anonymous said...

m.. i actually not a blogger just pass by.. anyway guys u can call me ying.

maybe i went into wrong relationship as you [\(^0^)/] said but i still believe love need brave. withought brave u not dare to give all u can. that's why relationship cant be the right one. anyway that's my opinion..

happy new year ^_^

JYJL said...

Happy Chinese New Year!

Har! This is more like it. At least Me (and others) can identify who talking to who. Btw, thanks for dropping by!

Ying. I can't get how do you relate brave and right relationship together. But I do see that right relationship takes time to build friendship. Knowing each others thru times share together. Soon enuf, u'll know is he the right guy. No rush. Is braveness playing a big part here? Erm, I put faith into play here better. Hope u're facing ur situation with faith and courage. God bless!

JYJL said...

Oh ya, forget to regards about the price. Erm, I dont know how much ler. Around 30 bucks something I guess. Hehe.

Anonymous said...

weeee...haha happy chinese neww yearr! \(^0^)/ u bought da book u so fast terlupa da price? hmm..i dont dare to be brave in that sense..honestly i never had one relationship..im still waiting for my mr right to appear and hope God really hints me strongly kaka..coz once i found my mr right..i want him to be da one im marrying to..is like my first and last rsip so i dont dare t oget involve in any rship now until i tink is right....so hopefully God hints me realyl strongly ..hehhe...

JYJL said...

All the best in ur journey to relationship. :) Just that, don't overspiritualized a romance okay. Just enjoy being a best friend to that guy when he comes. God will surely lead you all the way, :P.

Actually I don't have the book. I borrowed. Haha. I'll get the price tag and paste here.